Don’t talk like one of them. You’re not! Even if you’d like to be. To them, you’re just a freak, like me! They need you right now, but when they don’t, they’ll cast you out, like a leper! You see, their morals, their code, it’s a bad joke. Dropped at the first sign of trouble. They’re only as good as the world allows them to be. I’ll show you. When the chips are down, these… these civilized people, they’ll eat each other. See, I’m not a monster. I’m just ahead of the curve- The Joker

Now I bet you’re wondering if I have some deep philosophical purpose for Heath Ledger and I like the psychopathy and mystery of the Joker. I like crazy men. There, I said it. Well no I shouldn’t say that because technically I don’t like them but I can’t help being  the joker’s quote. Haha. Nope. Simply, I think the joker is hot. Partly because I know under all that make up is the late but nevertheless handsome to them physically (sexually). Another example would be Loki from the Thor. Holy crap! Now there’s a morally ambiguous character. You don’t know if he’s trying to take over the world or is hurting because he never felt like he belonged. 😢 But there’s another reason for my and many’s attraction to ‘crazy’ characters. How special would it feel if an insane person did a complete 360 just for you. His feeling for you are so powerful that it makes him want to change his life. Ooh how about this? You’re even more special because he’s a total jerk to everyone else but you’re a queen in his life. I can just picture it now. Can someone say romance novel?!


Oh oh and I guess you can pull something philosophical from this quote. People are at their best when they need something. Their true colors show when you can’t fulfill that need. I like to guess what the joker’s history is. I think he symbolizes the truth of human nature. That’s why he can adapt to any surrounding.


Let’s talk about psychopaths the joker’s quote. Haha. Nope. Simply, I think the joker is hot. Partly because I know under all that make up is the late but nevertheless handsome the joker’s quote. Haha. Nope. Simply, I think the joker is hot. Partly because I know under all that make up is the late but nevertheless hands


Marilyn Monroe may have been onto something

A wise girl kisses but doesn’t love, listens but doesn’t believe, and leaves before she is left. -Marilyn Monroe

Are you surprised by who said that? The perfect bombshell who could get any man she desired? The woman who still has men groveling at her feet?  Why would she say this? Well, I think Marilyn Monroe knew what men liked while at the same time realizing the truth about them. Her legacy points out what is really about: looks and that won’t change. The most women can do is play the game and milk it until they’re time is out meaning they get older. However this can be done without winding up bitter and lonely. You see, many women believe men will give them the emotional satisfaction they are craving and as long as they believe it is there, they will continue searching. Ant they continuously get broken hearts. What women should realize is that the problem isn’t with them but there is a much bigger picture out there. And they compose of the other gender. Men are incapable of giving what Nicholas Sparks or Titanic gives us. And it might be sad when you first realize this but ultimately it can lead to a much happier life. I wouldn’t call myself a feminist because I’m not trying to change people. I would advise women not to only play the game but play by their own rules. The new Marilyn is Kim Kardashian and she’s got it right. Almost


My background

Since this is my first blog, I’d thought I open up with a little bit of my history. It all began 17 years ago in a very popular city (I won’t say because it’s none of your business). I created this blog to vent and hopefully reach other (girls) like me. If you can’t tell by now, I may be a bit bitter. Rightly so? I’ll let you be the judge. For starters,  I’m black so that’s one point already against me. Another point is that I’m not that caramel mocha black like Beyoncé but black like a television screen. Beginning in the third grade, other kids had no trouble pointing my skin color out. Boys and girl equally. I didn’t worry about it so much from the girls because frankly why in the hell would I care about what they think? It’s the boys who I wanted to like me. The majority of my school life consisted of mostly black classmates. The bullying for black men (yeah I know don’t forget the girls) lasted until freshman year of high school whin is when I attended my first mostly white school. Not one person especially the guys made fun of me. They ignored me but I’d rather that than being taunted constantly. Something happened freshman year: my attraction to black men ceased to exist. Since then, I can only get a lady boner for white guys (and other races besides black). I think I have an explanation besides the  whole black men bullying thing. You see, like most black kids, I grew up without a father. At two, he came out of the closet and walked away (I do think my father’s abandonment is not completely his fault but I’ll save that for another time). Of course my mom struggled with me. Secondly I had a drug addicted numb of an uncle who caused me to lose everything  and be homeless for a year. Mix that with the taunting, no father, and the black men you see walking around today and I hope you understand. Well this has been a brief overview of my history. Oh and my grandfather divorced my grandmother, left her with nothing, and married a younger white woman. 😡