F you Society!

See how easy that is? If you don’t like society pressuring you to do something, just put up both of your fuck you fingers. Given my recent blogs, I’m mostly referring to societal pressures or expectations placed on women regarding our appearance or sexual activity. I’m too fat? Fuck you. My boobs are too small? Fuck you! I should wear heels? Well they hurt my feet so fuck you! I don’t like sex as much as men? Fuck you! I like sex too much? Fuck you! The minute you stop caring about what others think of you, pressures go away. Like magic. But don’t stop being the best you can be. I think we should care what our bosses think because well they pay us money and money makes this world go round. Now I know what question is brewing in your mind. “What about men”? Personally, I don’t think appearance should matter all that much. Now I’m biased since I’m at a disadvantage when it comes to my looks if it matters. I don’t wear make up unless my mom makes me. The same goes for heels. Right now, I’m financially dependent upon my mom so I can’t exactly say no but once I get that one bedroom apartment made for me, myself, and I———-hello big t-shirts, sweatpants and sneakers! I don’t want you to get the idea that I hate men. That wouldn’t be farther from the truth. Its just that I think what they consider important in a spouse isn’t important. Now I can see how this can be seen as hate but it isn’t. It’s preserving my emotional health and well-being. And turning myself into something I’m not or want to be isn’t healthy for me emotionally. I’m prepared for the consequences of my actions. No dates, lonely nights, and Vampire Diaries. I’m already there. And yes, sometimes its very hard to not want that special someone with me. But I know that special someone has conditions that I don’t want to meet. Am I happy being this way? God no. But I was thinking about what it would be like to be in a relationship and reading online taught me that women have to sacrifice a lot in order to make a relationship work and that doesn’t sit well with me. I don’t think I’d be happy in a relationship either. Honestly what makes me happy is being away from pressure and expectations. I turn my lights off in my room, snuggle up in my blanket and watch TV. For that while, I’m free. I don’t have to go outside and smile and be nice. I’m just me. Whoever in the hell that is. Television is very dear to me. It helps me escape my own life and run into someone else’s. It’s definitely a sickness but its one I don’t care to cure.